I will not sugar coat it, when I realised my laptop had died, and there was a possibility that the hard drive could be so fried that I would not be able to recover any documents, it wasn't a pretty sight. I was stressing, I was annoyed, but obviously once the initial shock had subsided I set out to think positively and find alternatives. I searched around for backups of things that I had on there, very very focused on mainly finding the incomplete novel because the idea of re-writing the 14000 words that I'd managed so far was a little scary and upsetting. But there are hella worse things that could have happened! Nevertheless I had found a backup of the novel on my external hard drive, but it wasn't the most recent, it was although still a copy. Today, my positivity hit the roof and I thought that this could actually be a really good thing, because there were parts of the novel that I was a little unsure about, and not totally happy with, so this gave me a chance to re-create and refresh. My plan today was to go on a long walk to a little park/reservoir/lake thingymajig that I like to go to, looking around finding inspiration and writing ideas now, sentences, phrases etc and luckily what I'm writing now I believe is probably better than what I had. I think the main problem with my story was that I'd given myself quite a short deadline to finish a certain amount of words, so I had started to rush myself in parts which obviously is a shameful and sinful thing for a writer to do! With a more refreshed, quality-focused mind I've been able to write something better, and improve. It's like my laptop dying was actually my novels way of saying "I don't care about this laptop, you need to improve me, I'm shockingly bad right now, get your act together, slow down, refresh and clear your mind, and come back and write a better version of me.... I wanna sparkle!"
So with most things you just need to take your time! Just needed to remind myself that.
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