First off I want to just reassure you that this post won't be quite as horrifically long as my last one. I promise. Now 'Mood Music', just quickly I'm not talking about Barry White or Marvin Gaye in the bedroom, I'm being a little bit more generalized than that, I mean music that we play or is being played that reflects the mood we're in, and the weird bits and bobs around it.
So I think we'll start with the worst one first, so we can end on a positive note, sound good? You can't reply so I'll presume you agreed ;) "I'm depressed/sad/unhappy, I am unsure of what I should do to make myself feel better, oh well I'll just sit down and play this very depressing song, that seems like the best option for me at this moment, while I think of what to do" "WHAT??" I don't know how true this is for anyone else, but blooming heck is it true for me, if I'm ever down in the dumps, my mind instantly decides to play the most depressing songs possible, or ones that are about situations that are making me sad, I mean what the hell? It seems like the strangest thing to do, but something is so natural about it, one thing you should know about me is that I'm pretty much addicted to the internet and my phone, simple as that, so if I'm depressed and use them, you can bet I'll either go on YouTube or plug my headphones into my phone and shove some slow and sad music on! Why? I'm not sure, maybe in my unhappy zombie-mode I calculate in my brain that if I combine my emotion with the same type of song that they'll just clash and produce a happier emotion. Yeah...Sure....Whatever you say Zombie-Liam.
ENOUGH! Happy music time. What do I play when I'm happy? Depressing music, no I'm joking...possibly, but still the majority of the time its really jumpy songs, a bit of Stevie Wonder, bit of Michael Jackson, or a bit of rap something that makes me wanna jump and run around the house like an idiot (my flatmates have already witnessed this...poor them) BUT, when I'm happy and in fact when I'm being depressed but sensible, I listen to quite a bit of screamo; there's something about hearing someone destroy their lungs shouting lyrics that lifts my spirits! It'll be something like King for a Day by Kellin Quinn and Pierce the Veil, You are Beautiful or Friends like These by Deaf Havana just on repeat.... Personally I think it's a pretty good idea, it works for being depressed AND angry, you can hear someone screaming, and feel like you're letting everything out, without getting a sore throat! Think about doing that next time!
Last of all, next time you're washing up or drying up or doing any chores shove some Stevie Wonder on or Michael Jackson BEST CHORE MUSIC EVER, get your dance on while working, its fun, its exercise and its greeeeeeat!! ... Oh dear, I think I should stop there, turning a bit insane. Tarah!
Tuesday, 5 November 2013
Monday, 4 November 2013
2013 Reflection.
Change. That is one of the main words I would use in relation to this past year, change and difference, a lot of my own personal morals, traditions, routines, feelings, concepts, wishes have completely changed, and I have been made to contemplate a lot. This is not a bad thing, trust me, sometimes we all NEED that change, we can be stuck in a position where we follow what we believe is the 'right way' or the 'only way' when in fact its purely 'your way' which can be changed, and doesn't have to be as set in concrete as you make it out to be. Just the same as you can sometimes be lead by 'others way' which is a set of feelings or morals that are molded to you by others who you respect, but may not respect and fool you into thinking their way is the best way. I'll start with a little warning though, despite the greatness and real benefit that comes from such a change, because you find yourself contemplating so much, if you don't handle stress very well it can be ... tricky, so take it slow and don't over-think everything, believe me its dangerous.
Personally, I've always been terrible at controlling my stress in difficult situations, so this year having a lot of things to think about, to do with old friends, new friends, very old past events, who I am as I person and of course exams and getting into Uni, I found myself having quite a few panic attacks whether its within stressful situations, at one point it was when everything was completely silent, and the worst one was simply when I was thinking way too much and being paranoid, my panic attacks were never awful, and the worst one I had was on and off for about 10 minutes, so I had about 3 seperate panic attacks in that time ending with me just breaking down and leaving the room with a friend of mine, but they're still tiring and upsetting. Some of the closest friends I have now I met in November, which included one of my best friends, who had showed me quite a few YouTubers that she watched and who wrote blogs, and did vlogs, one of these was Zoella; http://www.zoella.co.uk/ (Check her out, and look at her YouTube aswell)
Now normally I probably wouldn't have strolled upon Zoella, as the majority of her blogs are to do with Fashion and Beauty, but I'm glad I did, as she's a very funny person, and her videos are great, one particular video, along with support from friends helped a lot, this video was about Panic Attacks and how she dealt with them and her own experiences, watching that video made me feel a lot better about what I was going through, and how I could help myself. (Video: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7-iNOFD27G4&hd=1)
Even just this, and seeing how my new friends helped me so much, made a lot of difference to that year, despite having a couple of friends that I've known for a long time, and have always been good to me, there was always a few friends that just made me feel unhappy with who I was, and to come in this new group and lose the ones that gave me that feeling made such a difference. Essentially I jumped into something I was completely unsure about, I got rid of friends, which is always a daunting thing for me, and I came into another group with a few friends and tried to make friends with pretty much complete strangers, and now I feel soooo much better. Which is the same with the whole year, and Uni, I've made a conscious effort to jump to a zone where I am uncomfortable, and to open my horizons, listen to my new friends thoughts and tried to understand what I never grasped before. So, if you've managed to keep with me all the way through this looong post, then I apologise for the length, I thank you for your patience, and I guess what the real purpose of this post was to explain how my year has been, and to tell others that have been in a similar mindset or situation to me that the idea of going into something that's 'unfamiliar' or 'uncomfortable' but might have good results, is one to be embraced, and basically go for it, don't hold back. I have never felt as happy and as content with who I am, as I do now, honestly there's still a few things that mess with my brain, but that's how it goes, and there is such a massive difference to how I was at the start of the year. So I'm going to finish this sentimental and extremely long blog, by being even more sentimental and thanking my friends for being so darn awesome, and to Zoella for posting that video, and making a difference to my view on my panic attacks. Phew. Blog over.
Seriously, congratulations if you made it this far, and I hope I might have helped a little.
Also just to add, I know this might be a little heavy for a 9th Blog plost, but I feel like If I'm going to continue with this blog, I should get the ball really rolling and one of the best ways of doing that is by having passion, and to write about something that has made such a difference to me, makes me passionate about this blog. I respect that I don't have a large audience but if this helps anyone, then hip hip hooray! I always found myself wandering onto random blogs and things to try and help me.
Anyway go and listen to Stevie Wonder or some Chubby Checker, be happy.
Personally, I've always been terrible at controlling my stress in difficult situations, so this year having a lot of things to think about, to do with old friends, new friends, very old past events, who I am as I person and of course exams and getting into Uni, I found myself having quite a few panic attacks whether its within stressful situations, at one point it was when everything was completely silent, and the worst one was simply when I was thinking way too much and being paranoid, my panic attacks were never awful, and the worst one I had was on and off for about 10 minutes, so I had about 3 seperate panic attacks in that time ending with me just breaking down and leaving the room with a friend of mine, but they're still tiring and upsetting. Some of the closest friends I have now I met in November, which included one of my best friends, who had showed me quite a few YouTubers that she watched and who wrote blogs, and did vlogs, one of these was Zoella; http://www.zoella.co.uk/ (Check her out, and look at her YouTube aswell)
Now normally I probably wouldn't have strolled upon Zoella, as the majority of her blogs are to do with Fashion and Beauty, but I'm glad I did, as she's a very funny person, and her videos are great, one particular video, along with support from friends helped a lot, this video was about Panic Attacks and how she dealt with them and her own experiences, watching that video made me feel a lot better about what I was going through, and how I could help myself. (Video: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7-iNOFD27G4&hd=1)
Even just this, and seeing how my new friends helped me so much, made a lot of difference to that year, despite having a couple of friends that I've known for a long time, and have always been good to me, there was always a few friends that just made me feel unhappy with who I was, and to come in this new group and lose the ones that gave me that feeling made such a difference. Essentially I jumped into something I was completely unsure about, I got rid of friends, which is always a daunting thing for me, and I came into another group with a few friends and tried to make friends with pretty much complete strangers, and now I feel soooo much better. Which is the same with the whole year, and Uni, I've made a conscious effort to jump to a zone where I am uncomfortable, and to open my horizons, listen to my new friends thoughts and tried to understand what I never grasped before. So, if you've managed to keep with me all the way through this looong post, then I apologise for the length, I thank you for your patience, and I guess what the real purpose of this post was to explain how my year has been, and to tell others that have been in a similar mindset or situation to me that the idea of going into something that's 'unfamiliar' or 'uncomfortable' but might have good results, is one to be embraced, and basically go for it, don't hold back. I have never felt as happy and as content with who I am, as I do now, honestly there's still a few things that mess with my brain, but that's how it goes, and there is such a massive difference to how I was at the start of the year. So I'm going to finish this sentimental and extremely long blog, by being even more sentimental and thanking my friends for being so darn awesome, and to Zoella for posting that video, and making a difference to my view on my panic attacks. Phew. Blog over.
Seriously, congratulations if you made it this far, and I hope I might have helped a little.
Also just to add, I know this might be a little heavy for a 9th Blog plost, but I feel like If I'm going to continue with this blog, I should get the ball really rolling and one of the best ways of doing that is by having passion, and to write about something that has made such a difference to me, makes me passionate about this blog. I respect that I don't have a large audience but if this helps anyone, then hip hip hooray! I always found myself wandering onto random blogs and things to try and help me.
Anyway go and listen to Stevie Wonder or some Chubby Checker, be happy.
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